A Deeper Faith

In my prayer time today, I was going over yesterday's lesson and wanted to put it out there. Over the past few days several people have brought up the Abraham and Isaac story to me. Some have shown me several analysis of the words and how Abraham said "we will be back" (or something like that) How it was as contradiction. God promised Abraham and therefor Abraham knew that God would not take his son etc. I don't know what the commentaries say on it but this is what has struck me so profound and is what I believe God is teaching me right now. I touched on it yesterday.

I was wondering if Abraham was credited as righteous because he said "Here I am." and obeyed. Maybe he did not think of what God's outcome was going to be because he trusted that "God would work for the good of those who love Him." He knew the promises God had made him, and trusted God would fulfil those promises, but maybe he had no idea how that was going to happen nor did he have any expectations. He just put Isaac in God's hands. It is a fine line and I hope I am making myself clear.

I relate it to my situation this way. I have put Oslene in God's hands. I have from the beginning. I have had no control and have even less control right now. But even through all that I "had faith" that God would bring her to me. "I had faith" that God would keep her from harm. In my mind I had already seen the outcome of MY faith. See how that is backward. God gave us this promise: "In all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. " We know this is true because God said it. He didn't say have faith and this thing that you think will happen is going to happen.

I have to do as Abraham did and say "Here I am Lord". (Going to God) and then take the next step in obedience to Him. It is not my job nor my place to see 15 steps down the road and expect that from God because I said Here I am and stepped out in faith. All I do is take the next step and wait on God. In one way this is profoundly comforting and in another way it is terrifying.

We may have been called to step out in faith, to choose Oslene, to pray for her, to support her financially and take every other step that has gone on in this process. But God never promised her to us. (Now I pray every day that he brings her here, but that is prayer, it can not be expectation) And if God never brings her here I have to trust in His promise in Romans 8:28. Trust that it is a far bigger picture than I could ever see and it is not my place to see it. It is my place to say here I am lord and take the next step. Nothing more. I hope that makes sense. It is hard hard lesson.